Dear So and So: Kitten

Dear Tinks,

Firstly apologies for all the name changes! I think we’ve settled on Tinkerbell now though!

Mainly though, I want to tell you that I’m sorry I’m struggling so much to bond with you. I’m trying, and I know it will come in time, but I am frustrated by it. I usually bond instantly with our pets, I don’t know why you are different, but I will love you in time.

Maybe the stress of last week, combined with the stress of having a kitten, is just getting to me. To be honest you are not helping by climbing my bare legs and biting me though! I hope that will cease soon, what with the tellings off you’re getting and your new scratch post and toys.

I can see how cute you are, I really can, and how funny you are, but something deep inside me just hasn’t connected with you for some reason, and that is hard for me. It is hard that I don’t love you yet, I want to, and I am impatient to, but I can’t force it.

Today though, I feel better, in myself and about you. I am trying to just let it be, to let our relationship come gradually, to allow myself to feel what I feel, even if, at the moment, that is nothing.

I am sad that because of my feelings, or lack thereof, I will miss enjoying your kittenhood, but maybe when you are older we will get on better, I just hope I don’t forever beat myself up for not savouring these precious moments; your exploration of each new room, your discovery of how to play with each new toy, your general nuttiness!

So, dear Tinks, that’s where I’m at right now. I can’t sign off with love, but know I wouldn’t have any harm come to you.

Yours,
Mummy, even if it doesn’t feel that way yet.

Tinks scratch post
Dear So and So at Mummy from the Heart

2 thoughts on “Dear So and So: Kitten

  1. I hope this doesn’t sound strange, but I like kittens from a distance (same with babies). I have no patience for small living things that I cannot control or are completely dependent on my care. Yes, they’re cute, but let me adopt an adult cat and I’ll be a happy camper. I’ve discovered that male cats are the most loving. So as far as I’m concerned, it seems normal to me not to bond with a kitten…all that misbehaving! BTW, have you tried a squirt gun or spray bottle?
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    • I will be trying a spray bottle next, was leaving that as a last resort.
      I’ve always bonded fine with our pets before, they’ve all been pups/kittens, so this is odd for me. I don’t really know what to do!

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